alright, so blogging hasn't been as easy as i initially thought. i mean, honestly, who knew that sitting down and writing out your thoughts every day could be hard? because this girl didn't.
well, not that it's hard, but more so that I'm too gosh dang lazy and exhausted most of the days to pick up my laptop and write my little heart out. like, DANG. sometimes this mama just wants to lay on the couch with something fattening (preferably pizza) and melt. and to be honest, sometimes that melting happens for hours... like four hours.
alright, im pretty lazy sometimes. ill admit it, dangit. but, until you're a mother, you never realize how much just sitting and doing absolutely nothing- except eating- feels so damn good. and by good i mean heavenly.
literally, HEAVENLY.
okay, enough with my rant about how great being lazy feels sometimes. now to focus on what is really important:
PAISLEY TURNING EIGHT MONTHS OLD TODAY, yeow!
actually, i'm not quite sure how i feel about it. especially since her first tooth decided to pop through today, also. ugh. i want her to have a toothless grandma smile forever. whyyyyy must her teeth grow? why must she grow? and why is it all happening so fast!?
sitting with her today while she tried to chew on literally everything possible, got me to thinking about how much joy and bliss these eight months have brought. and how the months are passing far too quickly.
oh, sweet little girl, you are growing up far too fast and mama is not a fan of it. not even the tiniest bit.
oh, but baby girl, the more you grow, the more you learn. the more your personality shows. the more you smile. the more you laugh. and, inevitably, the louder your cries become. all of which i witnessed today.
the smiles that are wider than your chunky thighs. the laughs that are so hard to pull out of you, but when they come, they sound of the purest joy. the personality that shows your sweet side, but gives us a glimpse of that rebellion. and the cries. the piercing cries that could make someone go insane. but, today. today those cries brought me to tears. today those cries weren't because you were hungry, or sleepy, or bored. today those cries were because of your tooth. that first tooth that signifies that my newborn isn't so new anymore. that my little tiny baby is growing. growing so fast. growing too fast.
so, tonight i held you tighter. tonight i held you longer. and tonight, more than any other night, i thank God for giving me the greatest blessing eight months ago. because these things- yes, including the cries- will be far in the rearview mirror sooner than we know it. one day, you'll go from your speedy little crawl to a speedy little run. and one day, your cries won't be because of a tooth, but because a stupid boy broke your heart. and one day, hopefully far away, you're going to move out and be on your own.
and all of those days, i can wait for.
happy eight months, beautiful girl.
